New life..

been a long long time since i last posted..
ok.. sometimes.. many many things can happen in a very short time..

ok.. first thing first..right after B.A.S.E. camp (fr friday to saturday), i went for the first service in my life (with Bro) and i accepted Christ. Hard to describe how i felt when i was there.. i cried alot.. it seems ages since i cried my hearts out.. and tt day.. i cried like i nv cried b4.. the pastor was sharing the sermon.. smthing abt "Brokeness".. touched my heart.. i was choking.. i couldn't breathe thru my nose.. i had to breathe thru my mouth.. but when the sinner prayer was recited, i mouthed every word with no sound coming out but i knew i meant every word in my heart.. at that moment.. i raised my hand.. i accepted Him.. at tt moment.. i din feel that it was mi who made a decision.. at tt moment.. i felt it was Him who took mi into His arm and embraced mi.. (this might sound kinda ridiculous to those who din go thru such emotions b4 and din noe God.. so ya.. just dun mind mi :) )

ya.. after that.. i felt good.. surprisingly.. was it cos i had released all the bitterness in my heart over these few mths thru all the crying or was it He was healing the wound in my heart? I din noe.. but I thank God.. for the peace i felt in my heart..

the past week was a good one... let's see.

1) (christian) friends were happy that i accepted Christ... (apparently some had been praying for mi..) encouraging me and asking me how i m copying with this new journey with God.. all ready to offer help should i need any..

2) in the past, when i found someone too childish or ignorant, i kinda feel sad for them and remind myself not to be like them.. and ya.. period.no more. Now.. when i noe such pple, i pray for them.. cos i wish they can be better pple..

3) more pple kinda see mi in office and talk to mi, encourage mi for the test..

4) felt smthing.. the kinda feelin that makes one smiles and blushes when she thinks of someone.. crush.. ha.. a feeling that i nv dreamt i wld feel again.. it's not the person that matters.. it's the feeling that matters.. it's tt i can still like someone that matters..

5) i passed the test.. din have 100% confidence that i would pass.. but yes! i did it!! ha.. exam result released.. din do very well.. but it's ok.. i secured 2nd lower.. and that's enuff for mi :)

for all good that happened to mi.. i noe.. it's by God's Grace and i thank God..

many things many thoughts i would love to share.. but ya.. mayb.. i shall leave it to nxt time ba..