yaya.. so here i m giving updates.. tt i m still alive n kicking haha.. n shining somewhere.. like star... but down with a bad cough n running nose again...
so many things to say leh.. hmm.. where shd i start..
ok.. guys.. how abt nature of my job first...
well financial adviser lor.. hmm.. morning go back office training, clear admin and call to fix appointments.. i m in a 5-day roadshow (RS) and 2-day apptmt grp (name: SEH) (n basically we r expected to work very hard ie everyday in the first 3 yrs of this career.) I do RS almost everyday n it starts from 3pm all the way till 10pm (officially). I kinda only close cold market (pple on the street ie strangers) but if warm market (friends n relatives) need my service, i m more than willing to share my knowledge.
so much abt the technical part.. how abt pple i work with... first muz talk abt my boss - S.Peh. i must say he's reali an very understanding boss.. the only thing is.. he's too bz le la.. but if need any help, he ll be there... pple in my team.. nice n helpful coworkers.. quite smthing to talk abt.. i shall devote another entry to talk abt tt..
den.. dance as usual... went SnB annual DnD- Latin Fever.. ll upload some pics nxt time.. from the way i m smiling in the pics, i realised i enjoyed myself more than i thot i had!!! i reali missed everyone so much.. n it's so good to see everyone again..
I wanna share a sermon..
Abraham- Winning When You don't Understand God's Ways
1. Wait in Submission - Even when it takes a long time.
I had been waiting for His sign.. a sign to tell my parents abt wat i m actually doing.. a sign tt says "it's time to confess".. I had waited in fear and guilt.. still, I waited..
2. Walk in Step - Even when we don't understand.
Isaiah 43:18Forget the former things; do not dwell on the past.
I decided to go down this path for I see His Light pointing that way. Don't ask me how i noe for I myself oso cant' reali answer that qns.. not knowing where this path's goin to lead mi to, i followed the pair of feet, His feet, infront of me.. i walked in darkness.. yet each step i take, i walked in faith. I hav faith that God always do the right thing and He will give me victory.
3. Worship in Sacrifice - Even when we cannot affort it.
Hebrews 11:17-19
By faith Abraham, when God tested him, offered Isaac as a sacrifice. He who had received the promises was about to sacrifice his one and only son, even though God had said to him, " It is through Isaac that your offspring will be reckoned." Abraham reasoned that God could raise the dead, and figuratively speaking, he did receive Isaac back from death.
"Who is the Isaac in your life?" Pastor Melvyn asked.. "Some point in this journey, you will hav to lift up this 'Isaac' to God, sacrifice to God. Will you be ready? Will your faith still hold?"
My "Isaac" is my family.. and this is hard.. at tt moment, i cried.. i cried out to God that i m sorry and i m not ready to offer my Isaac. I prayed for strength and courage..
who noes.. the sign that i was waiting.. the time that i dread.. came one week later..
I lifted up my Isaac.. believing that God will eventually provide.. and i faced all that followed with faith..
it was hard... there were times i thot all would be over.. yet.. God is there.. with me all these times.. this is the prayer i wrote in my little bk right after the storm came down..
"Lord Father.. Thank you.. I know you are with me all along. If not, i wun have the courage to say my piece.. Lord Father.. I lifted up the Isaac in my life. Will I really lose my Isaac? Lord Father, I have faith in You.. That you will eventually provide. But Lord, you know my heart. It's painful. Father, I know you will embrace me like you always do... But Lord.. talk to me.. i listen hard... Lord... i see your feet... in that little circle of light... and in darkness, i followed.. i will still follow... i dun noe how, i dun udstd.. but Lord, it's ok.. i know i can always count on you.. for You always do the right thing and Lord, in the name of Jesus Christ, I pray for strength, courage and your mighty guidance, down this path.. i know i wun be alone, for Lord, You walk with me. Amen! "
now.. i no longer live in fear nor guilt as i worked hard for my family.. and though there are still times when my parents scold me or nag at me.. i noe it's cos they care..
and i just wanna say..
God, you have been good. I dunno wat i did to deserve Your grace and love. Thank you Lord!
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