Frustrated!

hey jie meis.. those who noe mi long enuff.. when was the last time u see 涵彬 throw temper, 任性 scold pple? i cant reali rmber liao.. cos as i grow older (hopefully more mature too), i learnt to hold my temper, not control, cos i dun think i m controlling my temper, i simply hold it within.. but tt's where the prob comes in i guess.. it gets so bottled up till recently plus work stress i simply feel like blowing up..

wat i m gg to say nxt, i noe i ll sure 天打雷劈.. but i just wanna get it off my chest..

i dun like to use harsh words or appear so heartless or make anyone 下不了台.. i ll feel very very very bad.. i cried on the first time i rejected a guy on vday when i was j1..

yes, call mi emo call mi stupid or watever u want..

so dun expect mi to reject anyone flatly or very clearly.. i just cant bring myelf to do it.. ya blame mi.. i just cant..

but pple not getting my idea is simply getting on my nerve..

i m nice not equivalent to have chance..

i can be very good friend dun mean you can take one step closer

when i said NO, i mean NO..

when i said dun hafta to send mi home, respect my wish and just let mi go home myself la..

PLEASE.. is it so difficult to get this into your heads?

i dun see y i hafta lose my cool n shout to get tt message across!

and dun try to say things to make mi feel guilty or bad. i reali hate it.

yes i noe i m pretty, i m sweet, i m nice..i can sing i can dance i 多才多艺..when i smile, all the flowers blossom and the rain stops.. etc..
n everyone loves mi , 疼 mi..

yes..i noe i m blessed.. n i sincerely reali reali thank God for that..

but when everyones begin to seem to want a part of mi,
it becomes too much to handle and i reali reali cant take it le..

i need time for myself, space to breathe, my wishes to be respected
to be the pretty, sweet nice girl (if i m still tt after reading all the above ha)

i noe i shd be grateful and thankful and not say those 没良心的话..

i noe 被爱是幸福的..

我想我不是个懂得去享受被爱的女人，如果爱我的，不是我爱的人。

不是不好，是没缘份吧。