Been a long time

been reading my dajie's blog now n then.. felt she seems further and further away.. we seem to be living in different worlds.. drifted..

suddenly.. feel sad.. n lost..

pple who once left deep footprints in my life, in my heart.. how amazing the wave of time can wash them all away.. i dun like this kinda feeling.. we were once so closed.. n now.. we only rely on blogs to know how each another is doin..

whose fault is this? i guess no one's at fault.. there is no right or wrong..

a jie mei said "bz, no time" is a convenient excuse. i agree.. but many times.. i reali feel i hav not enuff time.. poor time management? 24hrs a day, scarce resource; career, ballrm dance, latin dance, family, boyfriend, best friends, many many friends, more and more commitments. i wonder if good time management can reali help me take care of all of the above..

stressed.. very stressed...

career -> boss has high expectation from me.
dance -> laoshi and partner have high expection from me.

my family and friends are sacrified. they are all very important in my life. ironic!

been travelling quite frequent lately.. haven been reali working hard enuff.. felt lost n defeated..

so unlike me.. whining and depressed..

a client called. i answered. he asked,"why are you always so happy?"
i found his qns funny. Imagine your financial adviser answered your call with "hello, wat?" as if you own her money, how would you feel? think the ans is also that of the first qns.

everything that goes up ll comes down.. no one can always be happy.

guess this is just the few moments i wish for simple peaceful life, to be a simple little woman.
guess this is just the few moments i wish i was not ambitious or competitive.
guess this is just the few moments i feel weak and lost..